Chapter 01

~ Julianna ~

"Juli are you alright?" I heard my little brother Noah s voice. I wanted to cry. After all, I ll never be alright without him because I have no money to spend on his disease. Shit.

"I m alright darling. What do you wanna eat?" I asked him as he came to me and hugged me.

"I need bread with cheese Juli" I looked down at his small body and my heart tightened because how am I supposed to save him? I love him and I can t even think about a day without him. I smiled at him and nodded before going into the kitchen. After breakfast, I went to the hospital with Noah. As I entered the hospital I saw doctor Peterson. He was one who did and helped everything about Noah.

"Good morning little one," He said with a smile and Noah giggled happily because he really liked this doctor Peterson.

"Good morning Pete" Noah joked as he ran towards the doctor. Then he picked up Noah and nodded at me before going into Noah s ward. After some time doctor Peterson came.

"Julianna, can I talk to you for a moment?" He asked and I nodded but this is the thing that I fear the most in this life. I have no idea what the doctor wants to tell me but I knew it was all about Noah s health. Maybe the news will be good or bad but I was just scared.

"Noah s health is getting worse. We should do the surgery as soon as possible" My heart shattered into pieces as I heard him. Unintentionally tears welled in my eyes. Why did this happen to us?

"Julianna, I know you have money problems. I m so sorry" Doctor Peterson patted my shoulder. I sighed because no matter what, I m going to find the money for his surgery and make him better.

"Doctor I ll find money," I said as I wiped my tears.

"You have a maximum of ten months. It will be great if you could find it soon" I nodded and looked at Noah through the glass wall and he was smiling at a nurse while chatting. I can t let anything happen to him because he s the only person that I have.

"Noah should stay in the hospital from today onwards." I was still looking at Noah. He s just so cute and he will be a handsome man in the future so as his sister I should just protect him.

"Alright doctor" With that I went into Noah s ward and sat on the bed next to him.

"Am I dying Juli?" I forced my tears back because I didn t want to cry in front of him. I smiled forcefully and took him onto my lap as I started to caress his silky dark brown hair.

"No. You re going to recover so soon okay?" I kissed his head and rested my chin on his head.

"That s great" He started to giggle. I clenched my jaws because I didn t want to cry. My heart was hurting and it felt like someone was squeezing my heart so tightly.

"I love you so much Noah," I said while kissing his little cheek.

"I love you so much more Juli" With that, he kissed my forehead. I bit my lower lip so hard because of the pain I m feeling in my heart but no pain could match the pain in my heart.

"Noah, you have to stay here for a few months. Is it okay darling?" I asked and Noah nodded with a happy smile.

"I will play with Pete all day," He said while jumping. I smiled at him and got up to leave.

"But Juli you will come to see me every day, right?" He pouted while biting his little lips.

"Yeah. I will" With that I left the hospital and went home. I had to go to university but my mind was in a mess so I went straight home. After I came home I jumped onto the bed and started to cry because I was tired and I was scared for Noah s life.

After I was done crying I went into the bathroom and washed my face and changed into new clothes. Then I heard a knock on the door and went to open the door. As I opened the door I saw aunty Elise.

"Julianna, you were crying. Weren t you?" She asked as I smiled forcefully. Then she asked what happened and I told everything that my heart was feeling and about my helplessness. She let out a deep sigh and pulled me to a warm hug. She was really like a mother, always cared for me and Noah but now she s getting old and I can t bother her with our things.

"Juli I m sorry for telling you this but I can t stay without even letting you know and I also don t have much money." She said with a sigh and I didn t care about anything and all I wanted was money. I wanted to pay for Noah s surgery as soon as possible.

"Tell me aunty Elise, at this point, I will do anything for my brother s life. Even if I have to sell my body" I said as I took her hands and placed them on my chest.

"I don t know Juli but I ll tell you and you make the decision" I nodded at her quickly and she sighed.

"A wealthy family looking for a surrogate. They want to have an heir as soon as possible and they will pay $100000 to the surrogate" She said and looked at my eyes. My heart tightened and I looked down. A surrogate? So do I have to give birth to a baby for an unknown man?

"What are their conditions?" I asked. I looked at aunty Elise s face and I knew she s sad and she didn t want to see me like that. She was the woman who taught me to wait until our fated ones and once they came our lives will be blissful.

"You have everything they need. Beauty, intelligence, and virginity. And you have those things beyond what they expect" I closed my eyes and thought about it carefully. So I have to give my virginity? It s okay, everything will be fine and I m doing this for my brother. It s just giving birth to live to save one.

"I agree. I will be their surrogate but please don t let Noah know anything about this" I said as I smiled at her. I saw the hurt expression on her face but she nodded at me and smiled forcefully. She really cared about me and I will always be grateful to her.

"I ll let them know and take you there." I nodded as she got up and left. I sighed and looked up at the ceiling. Is this what's going to happen to our lives, mom? I lost my parents and now I m suffering because of that loss. Urghh. Everything will be fine as long as Noah is safe and healthy.

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~ Ryan ~

"Ryan, when are you going to give us a great-grandchild? We are already very close to our deathbed" Urgh.. When can I have a peaceful sleep? Why do they want a great-grandchild? They already have a grandson.

"I don t want grandma. I m not ready to have a child" I said as I got up from my bed and walked towards her.

"Are you going to die with your virginity? Everyone knows Ryan.. They think you re gay" My grandmother cried as she hit my chest hard.

"Ouch grandma it hurts," I said as she smirked at me and started to cry loudly. Urghh drama queen. Then both my grandfather and father came into my room as they frowned at me.

"See, I only asked for a great-grandchild but he shouted at me" She sobbed while hugging my dad. I sighed and looked at them.

"Ryan, Do our last wish baby.. We want to see a little prince or a princess before we die" It was my grandpa who started to act this time.

"I don t have a woman so how am I going to have a baby? I can t do it alone. You know that fact right?" I said because I wanted them to give up on their last wish.

"Alright, you marry Lidia. She ll give birth to your baby" What the fuck? Lidia? That cunning and disgusting whore?

"No. Not her. I don t like women like her and she sleeps with men every day. Eww," I let out my disgust and looked at my grandma who suggested it to me. Her face was also covered with disgust.

"Alright then do you have someone you like?" Why can t they understand me? If I had a woman that I like I would have already fucked her countless times and got her pregnant.

"NO. I don t like any woman" I said and looked away from their direction.

"Oh my god! my poor boy, Is he gay? Are the rumors true?" I heard my grandma s low voice.

"I m not gay etheir," I said as I looked at her again. She sighed

"Alright then have a baby, I ll choose a woman for you with great beauty, intelligence, and especially with virginity." My heart started to beat so fast as she said that. Why was that? What the fuck?

"I..I.." Before I could finish what I wanted to say grandma cut me off.

"There s no need for your answer and be ready" With that grandpa and grandma left my room.

Chapter 02

After they left I looked at my father who was still standing in front of me while looking at me with a forced smile.

"Dad.." I said as he sighed.

"Your grandma s wish is to see a great-grandchild before she dies so do it. I know what you re feeling right now. I m sorry son" He looked at me with a sad face and left the room.

"Fuck" I cursed. Then I started to get ready and go to the office. I was late because of this grandma s drama. As I went out of my house my chauffeur came and greeted me. I nodded at him.

"Sir, which car do you want to use today?" He asked. Urghh.. I hate this. Why can t this man just choose a car and come to me?

"The car I always use and remember it s Rolls Royce ghost. If you ever ask me this question again I ll cut your tongue" He looked at me with a terrified look and nodded. What the fuck? I was just joking. Shit. I had so much work today and I was reading some documents. Then my chauffeur suddenly stopped the car.

"Sir an old woman is crossing the road," He said as I looked at the road and saw an old woman crossing the road. I nodded at him and looked out of the window and saw something that made my heartbeat increase. A woman…..

She was walking out of the hospital and she was wiping her eyes. Crying? Then she suddenly looked in my direction. I felt she was looking at me but I knew she couldn't see me because of the window of this car. After a few seconds, she looked away and walked away. Damn, she was fucking gorgeous. The way she looked in my direction is .. Damn. I don t know how to explain. She has waist-length natural light brown hair and grey color eyes. Fuck.. Why do I feel this way so suddenly? Shit. I forced myself to forget that feeling as the car started to move forward.

After a few minutes, I came into my office and took off my coat as I threw it away. I again looked back and saw it had already landed on the floor. I sighed and again picked it up and placed it on the sofa. Then a woman came into my office room. What the fuck? How dare she?

"Who the fuck sent you here?" I asked because I was fucking furious.

"President.. I came here to ask if you want anything?" What the fucking hell? She smiled seductively. Ha… did she come to seduce me?

"I need you to fuck of from my sight and you re fired," I said as she looked at me with a shocked face.

"Pr..president.. I" Is she showing me her pitiful face? Puff.

"Fuck off" I shouted as she ran out of my office while wiping her tears. She deserved it.

Then I sat on my chair and started to read the documents that I was reading in the morning. Suddenly, those grey eyes appeared in my mind. Damn did she use some spells on me? Shit. This is the fucking first time.

"Yoo Ryan…" I heard a fucking annoying voice as I looked in the direction it came from.

"What?" I asked Chris.

"Came to see you," He said as he sat down on the sofa.

"Tell me what do you want this time" I sighed and looked at him. I just wanted to punch him across his face but he s my fucking cousin and best friend.

"There s a girl in the IT area, Can I take her with me? She also agreed" I knew it, I fucking knew it. Fucking perverted bastard.

"How many women have you fucked in this company? I mean in this. Not in my other companies." I asked as I threw the pen I was holding at him.

"In here, I think it s only fifteen" I looked at him, he was talking as if it was nothing. Shit.

"Fuck off" I again started to read my documents as he quickly stood up.

"Good day bro, She really got nice breasts" Eww. With that, he ran out of my office before I could take action. Shit….

Finally, after a long day, I came home at night. After having a shower I quickly changed into sweatpants and a t-shirt. Then I went downstairs to join the dinner because everyone should get together, no matter what problem they had. It s a rule. As I entered the dining room I saw grandma who was smiling and chatting with grandpa. I went and sat down on my chair as she looked at me.

"Here you are, Ryan. I found a girl for you. She will be the surrogate and she has good qualities with her." I didn t say anything, I just listened to her because I knew I won t be able to escape from this.

"Before that, we should let her have nutrients because it will be important to the baby's health. So Ryan After two weeks you will have her" I clenched my jaw as she said that. Why do they want to force me to have a baby? Shit.

"I got her medical reports and the chances of getting pregnant is very high after two weeks. So do it" I looked at grandma and saw the seriousness in her face. I let out a deep sigh and talked.

"I ll do it but she can t know me and that she s giving birth to the heir of Winston family," I said because I knew what kind of women lived in a society. Fucking gold diggers. If she found that she s giving birth to a baby of mine, she would definitely try to take advantage of the baby. I don t want that to happen.

"She doesn t know and she will never know. As soon as she gives birth to the baby we take the baby from her and she will never see the baby after that. That s all" Grandma spoke as I felt pain and sadness through my chest. So my baby also won t have a mother like me. I looked at my dad and saw something weird on his face. Is he sad? Did he know where my mother was? Or she s also a surrogate that my grandma chose for him. Suddenly, dad looked at me as he changed his weird face into a normal one. He gave me a small smile and looked at grandma.

"Mom, how old is she?" He asked and I also looked at grandma.

"Twenty," She said as she started to eat her food. Twenty? Four years younger than me. Urghh.. I have no idea what kind of woman she is and why she agreed to be a surrogate for a man who she never knew but then I remembered that money can do anything. I laughed with that though and started continuing my dinner.

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~ Julianna ~

It s been two weeks since I came into this big mansion. I couldn t see Noah for two weeks because these guys won t let me go out of this house. They gave me nutritious food every day. I was sitting in front of a big window. I looked at the sky, it was getting dark and I knew a heavy stormy rain would come soon. I sighed and smiled because no matter what happened to me I m going to save Noah s life. Then I felt someone come into the room.

"Young master will come tonight. Be prepared and you will have half of your money amount tomorrow" She was an elderly woman and she took care of me over these two weeks. She s the only one who lived in this big luxury house and I have no idea what kind of wealth the owner of this house had. I bet he s the young master that she just told me about.

"Can t I have all money because I really want money quickly" I wanted to pay for Noah s surgery fee as soon as possible because it will make him alive but to my disappointment, she shook her head?

"You will have the rest of your money after you gave birth to the baby." My heart tightened. Do I have to wait for nine months? I nodded as she left the room. I sighed and got up, then I went into the bathroom and showered myself. I was scared. I made up my mind to face this but still, I m scared. I have no idea what kind of a man he is and his age. Maybe an old man. I felt disgusted but I let go of that thought as I thought about Noah.

'I m doing this for Noah. Be strong I spoke to myself and recalled Noah s beautiful cute smile. That smile made me relax so I sighed and started to shower. As I came out of the bathroom I looked at the time and it s already 8.20 p.m Damn. How many hours did I spend in the bathroom? Shit. With that, I changed into a nightgown that they gave me and looked out of the window and it was already raining heavily. Thundering and lighting. Then that elderly woman again came into the room.

"Drink this soup quickly." She said and I drank it.

"Young master will come in a few minutes." She said as my heart began to beat so fast and I was scared.

"Wh..what are you doing?" I asked because she took two long black satins and she began to tie my hands.

"You can t see the young master and can t touch him too" With that, she tied my eyes too. What the hell is this? What kind of a young master is he?

"Be obedient and do whatever he asks for you to do."

Chapter 03

I thought I was ready and I knew this day would come soon but I m not ready yet, I m just scared. I couldn t even see anything because my eyes were covered with a long black satin and also my hands were tied up. The scariest thing is it s raining and thundering heavily. After some time I heard someone s footsteps coming towards me and I knew he s the man that I m going to lose my virginity to. Then I heard his cloth removing sound. I knew he was looking at me and I could feel his burning gaze on me. No words could describe the fear that my heart was feeling right now. I started to bite my bottom lip because I wanted to calm down. I felt him as he came and climbed onto me as he placed himself on top of me. I could feel his scent and it made my heart beat so fast, It was the smell of damn expensive perfume. I was pulled back from my thoughts as he started to remove my nightgown. My body began to tremble because I was scared so I clutched the bedsheet so tightly.

"Scared?" He asked huskily against my ear. Damn.. he can t be an old man. His voice is just young but that didn t ease my fear.

"Can.. Can you remove this blindfold, sir?" I asked as I heard his voice again.

"No. You shouldn t see me" He said and parted my legs while placing himself between my legs. He made me wrap my legs around his torso, with that I felt a sharp pain between my legs. So finally it happened. I bit my bottom lip so hard because I didn t want to let out any voice. He waited for a few seconds and tears came out of my eyes as he started to move. It hurts….

"Ca..can I touch you, sir? It hurts" I found myself crying because I wanted something strong to depend on so he untied my hands.

"Of course" Without thinking I hugged him so tightly and buried my face against his neck. His strong scent filled my nose and for some unknown reason, I really liked it. Suddenly, he started to move fast and I wanted to scream but I forced my voice not to come out so again I bit my bottom lip so hard. I felt I was an object that he used to vent his desire, I felt like I was a cheap woman who sells her own body for money but I should be strong because I m giving myself to save a life. Then he gently touched my body and kissed my head. I was surprised and my heart also started to beat even faster. I let go of his neck and laid back because I was just tired.

"Don t bite your lips. Already bleeding" I heard his voice through his heavy breathing. I nodded at him because that woman told me to be obedient. I heard him chuckle and suddenly he kissed me. WHAT? I never expected him to kiss me and it was my first kiss. My heartbeat increased and I just didn t think that he would kiss me. It was a gentle kiss, unintentionally my hands wrapped around his neck and pulled him closer to me as he pushed his tongue inside of my mouth. Then his kisses slowly moved to my neck and downwards………………

It was a really long night for me.

The next day I woke up and no one was in the room. I got up from the bed and saw the huge blood patch on it. My virginity is gone. I just wanted to give it to a person I love but I had to give it to a man I never knew. I sighed and took a step forward as I screamed unintentionally.

"Ahhh." I fell down and without knowing tears came out of my eyes. It really hurts between my legs. That man is a beast with high stamina as hell. How many times did he do that? I don t even know, thank god I fell asleep.

"What happened?" I heard that woman s voice as I looked up at her. Her eyes were traveling through my body. I felt an embarrassing feeling because of the look she gave.

"I..I fell" I spoke and tried to get up but I couldn t.

"First time will always hurt the woman and I see, Young master wasn t gentle." I looked down because I didn t know how to face her. She came and helped me to get up and go to the bathroom. After she s gone I looked at myself through the bathroom mirror and saw the hickeys-filled body and messy hair. I forced myself to smile because I did this for my little brother. I took a shower and came out. I wanted to see Noah as soon as possible because I couldn t see him for two weeks. I changed into a black short frock and went out of the room because I wanted to ask permission from that woman but to my surprise, she was also there in front of my room.

"Can I go and see my brother?" I asked her as she nodded.

"I m also coming with you and old madam asked me to give you this" I took the envelope and opened it. I felt happy because they gave me money as they told me. Now I can pay for Noah s surgery and ask them to do the surgery because I will pay the rest after I get it.

"Okay" With that, I left the house with her. I came to the hospital and went to Noah s ward and saw he was sleeping. So I talked with the doctor and paid the money.

"But we can t do the surgery before the full payment is settled" What? Why?

"Why?" I asked because I felt like my whole world collapsed within a second.

"It s the rule miss, I m sorry" With that he just left. What should I do now? Why did this happen to me? How am I supposed to save Noah now?

"Ca..can I get the other half of the money now? Please.. I really need this. My little brother wants it. Please" My tears came out as I spoke. I wanted money and that s why I sold my body to a stranger. I looked at the woman in front of me and I could feel she was sad.

"I can t because our old madam asked me not to give it before giving birth" She spoke while looking away from me.

"I ll talk to her. Please. I beg you. I really need this" I begged her. So she sighed and called her old madam and asked. I couldn t hear what she said from the other side. The woman I was talking to nodded and hung up the call.

"I m sorry. Old madam didn t agree" I looked at her with disbelief. What? The old madam… Is she heartless? Why? I wanted it because of my brother.

"Why? Please. I beg you. My brother.. He s just a little kid. Only seven years old. He can t die. It s too early to leave this world. Please.. Let me talk to her." I sobbed. I didn t care about anything, I wanted to save my brother and that s all.

"You can t cry like this. It will affect your health" Ha.. My health? Or just because I slept with her young master and was going to give birth to a baby. Wait, young master…. I should ask him.

"I want to talk to your young master. Let me talk to him" I asked but she shook her head.

"You think that the young master has time to listen to you? He has work and he s busy. Just give up and let s go home" With that she grabbed me from my hand but I shook her hand and went towards my brother s ward. I went in and saw he was still sleeping. I can t, I just can t hold my tears back as I saw him. I kissed his forehead and took his notebook and a pen as I wrote that I love him and I will come to visit him soon. Then I left the hospital with one thought and it was I will wait for the young master. He will come tonight, so I ll ask him. I ll make him agree to give money.

I waited, I waited all night but he never showed up. Why? Why didn t he come? I was just confused because it can t happen in one day right? Maybe he will come tomorrow, then I ll ask him. I knew he would agree because I didn t feel him heartless and I don t think the father of my baby will be a heartless man.

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Time passed and it s been three months yet I m waiting for him. I got the result a month ago and at that time I was pregnant for two months already. So he got me pregnant that night. I sighed and placed my hand on my belly because there s a little life growing inside of my belly.

"Baby will wait for your daddy okay? Because your little uncle needs to have his surgery soon" I smiled. I was somewhat happy because I m going to be a mother. I turned around as auntyJade came into the room. She was holding a huge fruit plate and what caught my attention was papaya. I suddenly wanted to vomit. A disgusting feeling ran through my body but why? I ate papaya before. Why now? I ran to the bathroom and vomited. Then I came out and saw aunty Jade was still in the room. Then I saw grapes on the plate. I quickly went forward and grabbed it as I started to eat.

Chapter 04

"I think the little young master also likes grapes," I heard her say. I smiled and rubbed my belly. Little traitor. Staying in my belly and likes to eat his daddy s favorites.

"When the young master s mother was pregnant with him, she also ate grapes. Only grapes" She smiled and looked at my belly. My belly was not big but it had a small bump.

"When will the young master come again?" I asked. Aunty Jade s facial expression changed as she heard what I asked.

"Young master won t come again. His job is done and he doesn t have permission to come here again." What? Doesn t have permission? What kind of nonsense was that?

"He s the father of the child. Why can t he come?" What kind of father is he, if he can t come to see his baby?

"Young master has works. He s a busy man. Don t think that you can start a relationship with him because of the baby." I wanted to laugh. A relationship? I haven t even seen that man. How am I supposed to start a relationship with him? Pufft. I didn t talk with her more, just simply nodded because I didn t want to argue with this woman. He will definitely come.

As she went out of the room I laid back on the bed and stroked my belly. He should come because I have to save my brother. I will wait no matter what and no matter what they told me about him.

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Time flew and I m already nine months pregnant. I can t do anything with this huge belly. Doctors confirmed that the baby is a boy and this little guy is making things hard for me. Kicking me and moving. I have no idea how to leave him because he s mine and he s growing inside of my body. I just.. I m just not ready to let go of this little life. As for my little baby s father, he never came. I waited and I m still waiting but he didn t come for the whole nine months. Noah s health got worse last month because he didn t get his surgery. Why are these people so heartless? Am I going to give my baby to this heartless family? My tears came out because I was just helpless.

"No, Your daddy will come baby" I placed my hand on my belly and I could feel him moving. Every time I mention the word 'daddy he starts to move, maybe happy. Suddenly a sharp pain came as I screamed. Baby is coming, but didn t they tell me that my delivery date is next week?

"What s wrong?" I heard Aunty Jade s voice when I was about to talk and I felt something broken.

"Oh my god. baby " Aunty Jade yelled as she came and tried to pick me up. Then two men came and took me into the car as they drove to the hospital. I can t go through the pain. It hurts like hell. Aunty Jade was squeezing my hands.

"I..I..can t aunty…. It.. hurts" I sobbed because of the pain. Did my mother go through this when she gave birth to us?

"Be strong Julianna," She said as she caressed my hair. Then they put me into the ward and doctors came in. I was scared.

"Calm down Julianna, Push the baby" I nodded at them and started to push but the pain was something I could ignore. My body was covered with sweat and finally, after fifteen minutes, I gave birth to my little baby boy. I smiled as I heard him cry.

"Can..I..see?" I asked as a nurse gave him to me. He was covered with blood and some white colored liquid. I took him to my arms and looked at him carefully. He slowly opened his eyes and they were blue. Gorgeous. I think he looks like his daddy. Suddenly, my heart was covered with a bitter feeling because I won t see him after today. Unintentionally tears came out of my eyes as I looked at his eyes.

"Mommy s sorry my little prince" I kissed his forehead, my teardrops landed on his face and he started to cry again. A nurse came and took him into her arms but I m not ready to let go. I just wanted to run away with him because he s my son. Then slowly my vision turned dark as I drifted to sleep.

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I woke up and looked around. I was still in the hospital. I sighed and got up from the bed. My body was weak but I should go to Noah now. I ll take my money and pay it for Noah s surgery. I was still wearing a hospital gown and I saw clothes on the table and I knew it was for me. I quickly changed into the clothes and went out of the ward. Then I met aunty Jade.

"Here is your money and leave here. Don t come back again and as the contract rules you will never see the baby and his full custody will belong to his father." My heart shattered into pieces. How am I supposed to let go? He s my son and I gave birth to him. His father didn t even come to see.

"Can..I see him for one last time? Please. I gave birth to him. I m his mother" I spoke through my broken voice. I m not ready to let go. I carried him for nine months and he grew up with me, not with his father.

"You can t go against the contract. You already signed it. Don t make the old madam angry" Those guys are rich and I knew I won t be able to win against him. So without arguing I took the money and left.

"Take care of your health Julianna. Good luck" I heard aunty jade was talking to me but I didn t turn around to see her. I was just broken. They are just so heartless and didn t even let me see my baby for one last time. I forced my tears back and went to Noah s hospital. Finally, I m going to see my little brother. I smiled happily because I m going to save Noah and he will be happy.

I went to the hospital. I walked through the corridor and I met doctor Peterson. I smiled at him but he didn t smile, he just nodded at me and left. What the hell? But I saw guilt on his face. Why was that? Suddenly my heart became restless. Did something happen to Noah? No.. With that, I ran into his hospital ward quickly. As I entered his ward, Noah wasn t there. Fear took over me as I looked at his bed. Where is he? I asked myself and then the nurse came into the room.

"Where is Noah? Did he go to a check-up?" I asked her but her face had the same look as doctor Peterson. Why?

"Where is he? What happened to him?" I couldn t hold my tears back. I asked as I took her hands.

"Noah..He passed away yesterday" What? What did she just say? Passed away? No.. she s lying…

"You.. You re lying, right? Tell me where is he? I took money for his surgery" I said. I didn t believe her words and I won t believe them. Maybe Noah is playing with other kids.

"Julianna… I m sorry.. I know it s very hard to believe but he s gone. It happened yesterday at 10 in the morning. We called you but you didn t answer. I m sorry" Yesterday? At 10? I.. I was in the hospital giving birth to my baby. How.. How did this happen? My heart was suffocating and I couldn t breathe. I clutched my dress tightly. What is this? After everything?

"But I found money for his surgery" I said as I looked into her eyes.

"He kept this with him and asked me to give this to you" I didn t have tears. I just.. I was just empty. It felt like someone grabbed my soul away from my body. My heart hurts. She gave me Noah s notebook. I didn t open it because I was afraid..

"Is he really gone?" I asked again because I just couldn t believe it. To my disappointment, she nodded while wiping her tears.

"So…. where is he now?" I asked because I was done. I didn t feel anything. Just empty.

"We arranged a funeral for him. It will happen in the evening." So this is it… This is how it ends. After everything, I only gained pain, tears, and loneliness. Is this my life?

"Julianna. Where are you going?" I heard her speak but I didn t care. I just left. I hugged Noah s notebook tightly and left the hospital. I went home and I came here after nine months. I went straight to Noah s room and laid on his bed.

"I..I m so sorry darling" I said while hugging his pillow. His milky scent is still here with his things. I closed my eyes and recalled his smile. It was the smile that encouraged me every time I was about to fall. That smile gave life to my baby but now everything is gone. I failed him. I failed him as a sister. It was all my fault and

Chapter 05

At least I couldn t even see him. I m not ready.. I m not ready yet to read his notebook. I wasn t there for him. I wasn t there to share his pain. I wasn t there to listen to his last words. What kind of a sister am I? I hate myself and not protecting Noah. Why? Now how am I supposed to live without him? He was my life. I did everything for him but he s already gone. I just can t go through this pain anymore. I lost my parents, Noah, and also my baby. Why am I just useless? Why don t I just die? I can t live with memories. Noah waited for the whole damn nine months but he lost every hope. I was late… I was just late. I wasn t ready to let him go. I wasn t.. I want him. He s my only brother and the only family that I have…. It hurts and I can t believe it. He s gone….. He was waiting for me but I just couldn t be there for him. Guilty is killing me… I want to die…. With those hurtful memories and thoughts, I fell asleep finally.

I woke up after a few hours and it s already evening. I went into the bathroom and showered and changed into a set of black clothes. Then I went to the hospital. I saw my little brother laying in a coffin lifelessly. There are no words or actions in the world to describe the pain in my heart. I was just a useless sister for him. I saw the little kids that my brother used to play with crying and it broke my heart even more.

After the funeral was done, I looked up at the dark sky which was about to rain. My brother s untimely death is something that I will never be able to forget. I wanted to die so I slowly walked towards the sea. I wanted to kill myself and join with Noah but when I was about to jump I remembered something. My son. I will return the money to them and take him with me. With that, I went home and grabbed the money that they paid me and left the house. I went straight to the mansion that I lived in for nine months. As I entered through the gate I saw a car parked in and all doors were open. I went straight into the house and saw an old woman holding my baby. Suddenly, she looked at me and her eyes grew dark.

"What are you doing here?" She asked with an angry voice.

"I want my baby back. Here is your filthy money" I threw money at her because everything happened because of this woman. If she gave me money at that time my brother would still be alive.

"Oh my god, Julianna. Why did you come here?" Aunty Jade came towards us with a horror-filled face.

"Old madam are you okay?" She asked. Ha.. I knew I guessed correctly. She s the woman. Heartless witch.

"I came here to take my baby that I gave birth to," I said coldly again. I could see the hatred in that old woman s eyes but do I have to care? No.. I don give a fuck. Because of her, I lost my brother.

"Julianna, your brother s death is not my problem" What? How did she know?

"You knew? But yet you refused to give money that day. How can you become so heartless?" I shouted at her because I was lost and at the same time I was furious.

"People like you and your brother should die… Poor people make this country ugly" What?

"Give my baby back before I could destroy everything in here" I didn t want to talk to that bitch. I hate her already. All I wanted was my baby back. How am I supposed to leave my baby with these people? They are lunatics..

"Ha.. you know you remind me of someone I knew. She was also like you. So pretty, so intelligent. Stayed in this house and also acted the same way now you re in and at that time she was also 20 years old.. Totally similar to you" This old hag is crazy….

"But let me tell you a secret, Julianna. Her name is Tatiana and she lost her life because of love and because she failed to let go of someone that she doesn t own and especially she didn t listen to my words" Is she threatening me?

"Are you threatening me?" What kind of woman is this? She was filled with hatred.

"Maybe" She smirked at me.

"I don t care. Give my baby back" I looked at my baby who was peacefully sleeping but he was sleeping in a crazy woman s arm. She will harm my baby too.

"Jade calls the guards and throws her out." What? How could she?

"I SAID GIVE MY BABY BACK" I shouted at her as she looked at me with a shocked face. She looked at my face for a while and slowly shook her head.

"Leave" With that, she went into the house with my baby. I wanted to run after her but before I could do it, a strong arm grabbed me from my hand and dragged me out of the house. I struggled but I couldn t. I saw aunty Jade was looking at me with tear-filled eyes. Why is she crying?

"She ll pay for what she did," I said to aunty Jade as she shook her head and went into the house. I was thrown out of the house.

I slowly stood up and looked at the house. I couldn t help but cry because I lost both my baby and brother. I hate her. I hate that bastard too. He may be my baby s father but he s a bastard. It was all because he didn t come. I turned around and walked through the path. It was already raining heavily and I didn t feel any fear because I didn t have the heart to feel fear because my heart was covered with pain and loneliness. I was just crying, crying because I just lost more important things to me and why was my life so miserable? I walked slowly through the path and I was all wet and after some time I saw a luxury car coming through the road and soon it passed me and drove away. I couldn t see the people inside of it because of those dark windows but why do I feel like there was someone important to me inside of that car? I turned around and looked at the car as it faded from my sight. I sighed and left.

I came home and it was empty without Noah. He s gone. I went to his room and took one of his hoodies as I took a deep breath. His scent is something I always liked.

"I love you" I said and kissed it. Then I walked into the bathroom and showered myself. I came out after I was done and changed into clothes. I again walked into Noah s room and laid on his bed. I closed my eyes and when I was about to fall asleep I suddenly heard a sound. It came from the living room so I quickly got up from the bed and walked towards the living room and I screamed as I saw two masked men in my room. They saw me and came towards me. I turned around to run but they caught me.

"Don t scream" They said while pointing a gun at me. I wasn t scared because I didn t have anything to lose. I have already lost everything.

"Leave here. We will give you two days. Leave here and don t ever come back." They are threatening me but why?

"Why?" I asked slowly because I wanted to know and I knew these guys are not here to harm me.

"It's the young master s order." Young master? I laughed at myself. How did I forget that bastard? He should also be like that woman.

"Tell your young master I won t leave and I m not scared of him" I smirked at them as they pointed another gun at me.

"Ha.. Really? Your brother had little friends right? We have already sent our men to keep eyes on them. They are going to die anyways so we will help them and make it soon" What? How could they even think about that kind of thing?

"How could you?... They are small kids" My tears came out as I spoke.

"They will stay safe if you leave here. If not, think that they are already dead" With that they just left my house. Did I sleep with a human or a monster? How could he be so heartless? I have no idea what he will do to my baby.. I just hate… Hate everyone. Heartless bastards. I have no choice and I can t let those kids die because of me so I should just leave but where?.

I slept with a heartless beast and gave my virginity to that beast. I also gave birth to an innocent life for him. My poor boy. Please, God.. I beg you don t make him like his father. That's what I could pray for. With all those thoughts I went into my room and packed everything and went to Noah's room. I took his clothes and his favorite things and packed them all.

After I was done. I picked my two luggages and wrote a letter to Aunty Elise and took it

Chapter 06

~ Ryan ~

My whole world collapsed as I saw the woman who was laying on the bed. Her eyes were covered and hands were tied but I could recognize her. She was the woman I saw two weeks ago in front of the hospital. I could feel that she was scared. I looked at her red lips and my eyes fell on her body. Fuck… Her breasts, slim waist, long legs. Shit.. I felt my body was trying to take control. Fuck my lust. I looked at her neck and collarbones. Holy fuck… Fucking attractive. I couldn t wait so I took off my clothes and climbed onto the bed as I placed myself on top of her body. She was scared, scared as fuck…. I slowly removed her nightgown and looked at her. My heart beat increased as I looked at her. Is she a goddess? Fucking gorgeous. With that I started to do what I was supposed to do to her. I was gentle because I knew this was her first time and it would hurt her. As I started to move the satin that was covering her eyes became wet. She s crying and biting her lips. I saw her lips were already bleeding and that was a fucking attractive to look. So I failed to hold myself back and I kissed her. It was the first time I kissed a woman. I kissed her and she also responded to it while pulling me closer to her Fuck… Her body and her touch felt so fucking amazing. I lost every bit of sanity because of her touch and I became rough and crazy on her. I did it to her five times and she s already asleep.

After I was done. I got off her body and sat on the bed. Her breathing was calm and I knew she was in deep sleep. I slowly removed the blindfold and looked at her beauty. Fuck… She s so fucking gorgeous.. No wonder why grandma said she found a pretty woman. I traveled my thumb through her face. Fucking smooth. I have seen so many beautiful women but this woman is beyond that. She s gorgeous, pure and innocent. I kissed her forehead and got up from the bed. Then I saw the huge blood patch on the bed. Her virginity. It was me who took it. Her first man. I felt somewhat proud because I took her for the first time and I will be her man forever.

"You belong to me." I said as I smiled. She can t hear me but she will know it soon. With that I went into the washroom and showered. Then I changed into my clothes and went towards the bed. I covered her with the blanket and kissed her forehead before leaving.

"Wait for me tonight" I whispered against her ear and left the room.

"Young master, is everything alright?" It was aunty Jade who came after me as soon as I left the room. What the fuck? Why is she awake?

"Why are you awake at this time?" I was angry. Did this woman stay here and listen? Fuck..

"Old madam asked me to stay awake until the young master finished" Suddenly fury took over me as I heard those words. What the fuck? Until I finished? What kind of nonsense is this? Why do I feel something weird with grandma? Shit.. forget it

"I m leaving" With that I left the house. I m not sure about myself. If I stayed there more I would do it again to her. Fuck. I went home and it s already four in the morning. As I entered the house I saw grandma was awake and sitting on the sofa while reading a newspaper.

"Grandma? Why are you awake?" I asked her because she never stays awake or never wakes up this early.

"Oh. You re back. I was waiting for you Ryan" She put the newspaper aside and looked up at me.

"So.. it s done right?" She asked me as I nodded. She sighed and patted the next seat on the sofa. I went and sat down next to her.

"You don t have to go there again." What? Why? Did she think a man and a woman can create a baby in one day? What the fuck?

"Why?" I asked as she sighed.

"Today she will get pregnant. I checked her health details and she had a 100% chance to get pregnant so you don t have to go again. If she didn t get pregnant you go and do it after two months" What? Grandma.. Did she check those things too? But I wanted to see her again.

"I ll go tonight" I said because I wanted to see her.

"NO.. You re not going tonight and without my permission you can t step into that house again" What the fuck? Why? She s going to give birth to my child. Why can t I go?

"Why grandma? She s going to give birth to my baby. It s good if I could see her" I really wanted to stay with her until she gave birth to the baby.

"Are you crazy? Do you know what kind of woman she is and why she sold her body?" My heart tightened as I remembered her gorgeous face. Actually, why did she sell her body to an unknown man? Wait… I saw her at the entrance of the hospital. What happened to her? A sudden sadness ran through my heart.

"Her boyfriend is in the hospital and he needs money for his surgery. She loved him so much and decided to sell her body but don t you think she s a cunning woman who cheated on her boyfriend? She s doing this for her man but selling her body to another man is something not good. So don t get attached to her. She may become a prostitute soon" My heart shattered into pieces as I heard what grandma said. Does she really have a boyfriend that she loves? She sold her body because of him? Why does my heart hurt so much? I.. I thought I could make her mine and love her but she already has someone she loves. Yeah, she s cheating on him but isn t it all for him? What kind of love did she have for him? Fuck… why my heart hurts? I have never felt something like this before but why now? And why for her? Shit..

"Are you okay Ray?" I came back to my senses because of grandma s voice.

"Yeah. I won t go then" My heart tightened and I betrayed my feelings. I really wanted to go and see her but grandma was right I can t get attached to a woman like that.

"Good. Ray doesn't even think about going there and meeting her even if she got pregnant. She will definitely seduce you and try to become the young lady of this family." Seduce me? Become a young lady? But her face was so fucking innocent and I can t even think that she can seduce a man. Urghh but grandma is correct. I should listen to her.

"Alright grandma. I m going to my room" With that I got up from the sofa and left. I just couldn t make myself forget her pictures. She s just so fucking gorgeous. The way she hugged me and the way she depended on myself. Fuck.. I can t get her out of my mind. What did she do to me? This is not me.. I wasn t like this before. I went to my room and sat on the bed. Shit. She has a boyfriend but if she loves him so much why is she still virgin? And she was also scared, Fuck she didn t even know how to kiss properly. Did grandma find wrong information? No she can t be wrong. Just forget about that woman. I rested for a few hours and got ready to go to my office.

I came out for breakfast and everyone was there but my father was absent. Every year he had one day that he avoided everyone in this house. So yeah, today is that day. On that day he always went out in the evening and never returned until it was dawn. I wanted to know the reason but I was afraid that it would hurt him. I sighed and sat down for breakfast. No one spoke and it was the same as before. I wanted to ask grandma about it but for some reason I wanted to know about it from my father.

After breakfast I slowly walked towards my dad s room. I wanted to see him. I slowly opened the door to his room and looked inside and saw dad was sitting in front of the window while looking at something in his hands. I walked towards him and stood behind him. I knew he felt that I came into the room but he didn t care, he was just staring at the framed picture in his hands. I looked at the picture. Unknown emotions surge into me as I look at the woman in the picture. Knee length dark brown and black mixed hair with blue eyes. Just like mine. She was smiling brightly, she s definitely smiling at the person who took the picture. She was wearing a long white frock and she had one sunflower on her hand and she was wearing another sunflower behind her left ear. I have heard that according to Hawaiin culture if a woman wears a flower behind her left ear that means she s married or in a relationship. I smiled without knowing myself. So gorgeous, totally similar to her but eyes and hair are different. Then I looked at my father who was still staring at her as his life depended on her. Wait… So maybe he s the one who took that picture. Who is she? My mother? My heartbeat quickened. Is she really my mother or someone dad loved?